Parents!!

My parents have spoken to me about getting a full time job for when I’ve left college but how am I meant to do that when they are very limited at the moment due to this credit crunch.

I don’t understand then because I have a part time job at the moment in a pub. Ok, the pay meets minimum wage for 18year olds but they are not happy that at least I do have money coming in from somewhere. I tend to help out as a casual worker at my mothers work but today I refused to help out as I need to catch up on my college work but all I get from my father is ‘You’re just lazy, you don’t want to work!’ It’s not that I don’t want to work because I love to be able to earn money but what is more important my education or a job that i barely do and hardly any payment for??

I just want them to understand that I am looking after my education and my future. I need all this to get to where I want to be.

Why is there such a rush for me to get a full time job specially when there is very few out there that you don’t need the experience to do the job out there?? Most of the full time jobs you need experience in that job role and if you don’t they will not even give you a chance!

Wank day

Today was the most horriblest days of this week. I'm fed up of people treating me like complete shit!

I'm thinking of quitting college even though there is only a month left but I'm fed up of people blaming me for things I copied off what I was given or nothing linked to me what so ever! Today just tipped the ice burg that has been growing of the last year. I am no one's slave!! I had enough of being spoken to the way I was for telling someone stop thinking about their stomachs and think about getting the work done that we had limited time on!!

Anyway, I cried because of them and it's hard to make me cry!! So they should get a medal for being the greatest bullies I've ever met!! I do my work and ok I'm behind at the moment but not superising with what is going out side of college and within my family.

Some of you people that made me sob my heart out today in college and making me weaker than I am already. All I can say is thank you for being complete bastards and I hope you all suffer one day!! Yes this is harsh but think back in things you said and did to me!! And thank you for making me throw the last two years of my life down the gutter!! You complete wankers!!!

He’s the one for me!

I have recently been able to let go my trust issues I used to have when being with someone as I have realised my boyfriend is the most trustworthy guy I’ve ever known.

He makes me feel special and looks out for me. I have seen many guys come and go out my life recently but the past 7 months I have been happy with one guy :) He’s perfect, he understands me and loves me for me. It doesn’t matter what I do to embarrass myself or him, he just laughs it off and gives me a kiss followed by a nice little hug. :)

I’m just very happy with him and he always cheers me up whenever I fell down just he holding me and telling me everything is going to be ok. I don’t worry when he’s out with his mates because I know he won’t do anything to hurt me.

He is the only guy that hasn’t hurt me so far and I honestly can say I don’t think he ever will the only way this relationship with end will be down to me whatever that it is I do but that's the future so I shall leave that to work it’s self out . :)

I’m just extremely happy that I found someone that loves me for me! :) To show him how much I loved him this week I drew to pictures of him which he is now going to frame! :)

Things go wrong

Right, my laptop has died on me! Something has wiped my hard drive so I have no means of getting online like normal, I am currently using my iPod touch. :)

I've just downloaded an application that lets me blog!! :) xx